Lately, I have been trying to figure out my calling. There are so many things in my heart, I feel like its breaking into pieces. We all have been called to something, something that defines us, changes us, and draws us nearer to Jesus. I desire to leave the rat race that forces me to think materialistically instead of simply, how consuming this life can be. I ache for the poverty, for the injustices of this world, and it slowly takes a piece away from me when I sit and do nothing. I read today that if we were all to share the excess in our lives there would be no poverty in this world. Can you imagine that? Sometimes I think to myself “I don’t have excess, I have what I need.” But when I sit back and see all that I have, there are so many things that I could live without, the luxuries that we try to find ways to justify the means, we sugar coat it, we create excuses to why I must have/keep a certain thing, when millions and millions of people in the world have nothing. Dorothy May said it well “if you have two coats, one of them belongs to the poor” how true that is. Still, we try to justify it by saying there are different seasons in the world, and I have these jackets to use at different times, also is style, I have this many because they match with different clothes, when many out there don’t have one. I think Jesus was the worst in fashion, that’s because that wasn’t His focus, He focused on healing the sick, feeding the poor, love the prostitute, eat with the tax collector, sharing God’s love for everyone. I struggle with going to my house and try to pick things I know I don’t need that someone out there might find it useful. I have 4 jackets at my house, although I only use 2, it hurts just to think there is someone out there in the middle of the night cold, nothing to cover themselves, because I choose to keep my jacket. Let us share our jackets; I want to live simple. Giving is the only antidote to greed.
